For many years I sought to understand what was going on in this play, and what was going `wrong'. For me satisfaction came when I realized that a fundamental religious tenet sat very uncomfortably on me. That tenet was the belief that this world was one of Darkness and what was needed was the Light of God/ The Son, to enlightenen it. I was forced to evaluate what Darkness meant to me. I do not experience these states as a duality at all. To my mind they are one. I am not moving toward having a Light body any more than I am moving towards having a Dark body. I am not a Lightworker any more than I am a Darkworker.

People who are born blind can see their environment as well as any of us so called sighted people. They do not live in the dark, in loss, in deprivation, in ignorance. They just have a different experience from us.

We have culturally accepted a positive/negative loading on these words. It is compounded by gender loading: dark feminine, sun/son masculinity. Culturally we associate the dark as amorphous while the light is discriminating. I feel that BOTH light and dark are generative states. I have as many insights in the night as I have in the daylight hours.

One of the treasures I found in my searching was the concept of the Lumen Naturae. This is a term used by the alchemists and it refers to the Light Of the Darkness, which illuminates it's own darkness, and this light the darkness comprehends. It still gives me a deep pleasure when I contemplate this.

Imagine you are in a dark cave. You want to explore it, to know . The Church and much New Age dogma would say take with you into that mysterious space a powerful quartz halogen torch and with the light banish the darkness.

Now, go quietly again into that sacred place carrying the gentle glow of a single candle. Your experience will be qualitively different. Little by little the cave will reveal it's secrets to you. You will form a relationship with it as you move around. You will not violate the darkness, it will move magically from your candle and return when you pass. You will Know something of that dark cave and it will know you.

With the torch you will know nothing of it. You will have scorched its dark beauty and come away only with the memory of a cave filled with alien light devoid of mystery.

Light and Dark can be consorts in the Mysterium Coniunctionis, the Mystical Marriage.

Blessings, Madhi